Sunday, June 16, 2013

what i want

But I have had to do a lot of errands and work even over the weekend. I did manage to read and finish Why We Broke Up (third book from top of pile) but felt so horribly guilty and stressed afterwards because I read instead of working. I hated the feeling.

Hence I worked all Sunday, only pausing to celebrate Father's Day with my family, and I secretly envied everyone I saw in the restaurant and in the mall because they did not have to go home to work.

I was feeling so low that I could not even appreciate the books in the book shops, nor was I in the mood for any indulgent snack. The work kept bouncing around in my head and I was busy convincing myself that I would get it done.

I did buy myself a little something to remind me of why I got myself into this bit of a mess in the first place, and at the same time also to remind me of the resolutions I have come to in the past four days. I dug up an old Evernote post and everything was there, all the answers I have been looking for.

"To be 'on purpose' means you're doing what you love to do, doing what you're good at and accomplishing what's important to you. When you truly are on purpose, the people, resources, and opportunities you need naturally gravitate toward you." (Jack Canfield)

"Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." (Steve Jobs)

My dream of London is as big and as strong as ever. But there are many ways and many paths to get there. It does not have to be a sacrifice, or a costly trade-off of time and passion and joy. The obvious most logical choice does not always mean the only way or the best way. There are off-beaten paths. There are paths behind wardrobes. There are possibilities inside blue boxes.


  1. Good luck >:D< and you WILL get that work done soon enough. Remember that you're not going to do it forever, just for a few days! After that, DONE! :)

  2. I can see a lot clearly now why Peachie keeps telling me that we are so alike in so many ways. I guess, in terms of this post, the only difference that I see right now is that I don't feel guilty when I do my passions first coz I always tend to prioritize doing what I love to do then work comes later. I used to feel guilty before just like you until I just accepted my nature. Since then, I felt happier, more productive and more efficient. The challenge for me now is to eventually earn from my passions so I don't have to work a day in my life or treat my work as one of my passions. I think the latter is a lot easier, for now at least. ^_^